Logos: Psalm 32:1-5

Inspired by Psalm 32:1-5

I wondered

what it would be like,

to be forgiven.

To have this weight of sin

lifted.

What would it be like?

I saw those who walked in joy,

free from guilt.

Their sins covered.

Not hidden,

but removed.

I saw them, 

and I wondered.

What would it be like?

Is it possible,

I wondered,

that God would 

offer such great mercy?

That sin,

even my sin,

could be forgiven?

It is possible,

I wondered.

I yearned.

Those who had found such joy

Surely their joy sprang

from honesty?

From a clean heart and spirit?

I kept my silence

Certain that this could not be 

granted to me.

And my spirit withered.

My heart shrank.

Guilt ate away at me.

I yearned, and I died inside.

One day, my sin

was so heavy,

so crushing,

that I knew I must seek God.

I knew I must speak to God.

I knew I must turn to God.

So, finally, in my yearning,

I told God of my sin.

God became my refuge.

My strength.

My sanctuary.

God indeed has more mercy

than I had sin.

God gave me the grace

of forgiveness.

And God lifted the guilt.

My heart is clean.

My spirit rises.

I am alive.

I am forgiven.

I rest in the grace of God.

(Note: I will be taking a short blog break for part of next week, and will return on March 9)